Forecast: Great Things Ahead

So week before last, when I was home from Paris and suffering from extreme jet lag...

I lost all motivation for anything. I didn't want to do anything with my life. Absolutely nothing. No motivation to graduate from college, no motivation to run a marathon like I had been planning, no motivation to serve a mission, no motivation whatsoever to make something of myself.

I told my mom that it was kind of scaring me.

And do you know what she told me? She kind of laughed and told me that it was because I was preparing to do great things and be more motivated than EVER.

Yeah, right, I said. That makes no sense. We don't become completely UN-motivated and then just magically become motivated. That's not how it works.

But this week, I am feeling much more motivated. I'm still not excited about the next semester, I'm still probably not going to run a marathon in the next four months.

But you know what?! I'm feeling great about life. I'm just revving up the engines to accomplish GREAT THINGS.

So next time you feel completely unmotivated, just remember--
maybe you're just getting ready to be a mover and shaker.
maybe you're about to do something great, you just need a breather before you give it your all.
maybe you're going to accomplish amazing things...sooner than you think.

and maybe...maybe you're even going to CHANGE the world.

Maybe!

Return

So I'm home...and I'm wondering, where did the time go?

As I sat in the Chicago airport during my layover it began to hit me that I was back in America...the lack of sleep from the time change, the information overload of being able to understand every person around me, the food-chomping Americans, the multi-colored clothes and the sweatpants, the news in an understandable language...

And then I was home.

It's kind of overwhelming and I'm struggling with knowing what direction to go in my life, and lots of other things...

and I just don't know if I'm ready to face my life again. I mean, it's wonderful, but still, it's...life.

I guess God just has certain ways he wants me to grow, but goodness it hurts sometimes.